Its Saturday night and I am at peace in my new home. It is not mine really as I am staying with an awesome woman who travels a lot for work. We are pet sitting two best friend dogs. I call them Best friend dogs because at first I thought they were high maintenance and very shortly after I realized they are just up in your face best friends till the end. They love as if we have been here since their beginning.
Anyway, I am sitting her in peace writing and drinking a glass of wine after a f...king lame day as a road warrior at work wondering where my mojo went. It is a case of missing identity. It is a case of who the fuck am I and why am I here. It is a case of the what to do next and the wondering what if's. Damn I did not see this one coming. I did not see it at all.
Courtnie had me read back to my blog to see what I was doing 1 year ago today and I was contemplating the difference between a gunshot and firecrackers. "Look, I am sure this is much better", she said. Of course she is right, it is much better but right now I am trying to make applesauce from horseshit. I get the feeling for the first time in my life...my applesauce still has a horse shit flavor.
Anyway, I am sitting her in peace writing and drinking a glass of wine after a f...king lame day as a road warrior at work wondering where my mojo went. It is a case of missing identity. It is a case of who the fuck am I and why am I here. It is a case of the what to do next and the wondering what if's. Damn I did not see this one coming. I did not see it at all.
Courtnie had me read back to my blog to see what I was doing 1 year ago today and I was contemplating the difference between a gunshot and firecrackers. "Look, I am sure this is much better", she said. Of course she is right, it is much better but right now I am trying to make applesauce from horseshit. I get the feeling for the first time in my life...my applesauce still has a horse shit flavor.
