Day 2

I want to explain the title of my blog.  "The Rise and Fall of just Jill".  

I did not put much thought into it because as I tried to think up something more catchy...easily these words came back to me.  Words that individually meant a lot to me, and in that order. 

"The Rise and Fall" represents my state of Confidence, ability to Control and loss of Power over the last 2 years.  Ending two years of my life like a steam train slowly rolling into the station.

I know if you were a fan of "Jill In Brazil", one of two things happened.  After reading my new blog you either thought; I'd better call her to see if she is OK or you might have been wondering what happened.   I will get to all that soon enough because as much fun as I had writing "Jill In Brazil", this might be my best work yet.  We are going to go through some awesome mental trips together as I visit and reflect on some of my craziest and most desperate experiences along with some exciting events in my new future.   

Why "just Jill"?  I guess my bubble had popped.  A Brazilian in my English class once said to me, "Don't you Americans live in a bubble?".  Of course I defended it and then blogged about it, but now when I talk I generally say "Thank god for that beautiful bubble of Trust and Innocents".  
If it did pop I am glad of the timing but sad to see it go.  Just Jill represents the moment when I realized that no matter how grand my adventures or how much energy I put into making sense out of them, at the end of the day I look forward to a bit more ordinary life.